Monday, July 12, 2004
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this is gona be a weird entry.feeling really emotional now and my minds in a whirl.so pardon me if my entry is offensive like if it seems acting pathetic [hope seow poh wnt say that] or cutting or whatever.please be forgiving.thanks.this entry is really from the bottom of my heart.each sentence holds truth and nothing but the truth in it.
im like so messed up now.i really duno what to choose or do.i really love being with rah,ting,sen,ping,ru,mandy and the whole track team.everyones really nice and fun and all you can ever ask for.especially my dearest jellybeans and buddies.everydays so exciting and fun filled and we laugh non stop over everything.=)) just wana let all of you know i love you very much and really keep the times we spent together close to my heart.many a times, you've made my day.tho we talk about crap and stuff, you all are really wonderful to me![[biggest hug in the universe]] i really cant bear to leave all of you..if i really get thru..i really duno what to do lor..its like all of you darlings are so talented and can get into any jcs with track lor.then im like a stupid flat-foot with gastric and freaking short strides!!can never use track.have to depend on os which i can never do well considering the lack of time and discipline.=) then in future, im the laoyapok one who will be in some ulu jc while of you are in some top-notch cca.and i'll still be alone by myself.im really not abondoning you all k.but i need a path for myself and im struggling quite hard to derive at a decision but i really wnt bear to leave
if i even do.just hope that all of you wnt think that im abondoning you all cos you are my life.and i
cant do without you all..*huge watery kiss* i also hope that we will keep in close contact no matter where we are.and even if i ever leave, i'll come back to the petshop!!if we're really having the petshop, i totally wnt leave!!just dont hold it against me cos i'll be sad when people are angry at me.and huipings emotion evoking speech on flying away.im not flying with my wings.im just worried for my future.but anyway, i'll surely fail the academic test.got maths lor.aiyahh.im really sorry if you all are angry or feel betrayed or anything.really.im very sorry cos i din mean to do that.
i love all of you!!
jia you ting!
todays tuition is so slack.we spent the first hour talking.second hour talking and copying.last part, disturbing dear aunt joe.=) lessons were horrid and i had a fun time carrying the wonderful icebox with my schbag and file hidden inside.luggging the freaking box was so fun.and having intellactual conversations with yok teng was so enriching!!
its you
6:23 AM
i see in my dreams ;
